One day at a time.
How is everyone holding up? All of this is quite a bit to process for everyone but most certainly more for those working the front lines and for those who have lost their jobs. It’s a scary time and one that a lot of us have not come close to experiencing so our coping skills are being challenged.
I realized at the beginning of last week when I started to get panicky that I needed to adjust my way of thinking and being in this time period.
I live alone and my business is here with me. In many ways I am lucky and I know that. I try to step outside of that privilege as much as I can to help and support others. I live where I work. My business is on the same piece of land as my home so I do not have to leave here to keep working. I am grateful for that!! However it does mean that I am the only one here and it’s a lot of work and work I have not done alone in a very long time.
If you know me you know I have very high expectations of myself. I often meet those expectations but I also know that sometimes my expectations are unreasonable. I realized when I had woke up with a panic attack last Monday that I needed to cut myself some slack. There’s no way I could meet the same timeline that a team of 5 women could. Yes I might have a superwoman complex. So I stopped myself from overworking and stressing about it all and then changing my mindset and I will tell you it has made all the difference. I look forward to going out to the barn to work instead of feeling overwhelmed by it all and because of that I also feel like I am getting more done and infusing it all with the love and joy I feel is so important. Like enjoying the color bubbles from mixing dye!
And enjoying how the colors mix and shine of the Super Sparkle yarn before it all soaks into the yarn.
That place where two colors meet and make another color or another shade of that color is one of the most magical and wonderful parts of being a dyer.
As far as jobs go mine is pretty awesome and I am fully aware of just how lucky I am!
So I guess this is my very round about way of saying that all of this that we are going through is seriously hard. It’s a lot to process and dealing with so we are going to need more patience and love with ourselves and each other to get through this. If you are sad or scared feel it, it’s okay and reach out. I was feeling a little sad this am so I called a friend and just hearing her voice helped me. And now I am writing to you which honestly ALWAYS makes me feel connected and joyful. We are in this together even if we are not physically together.
So what am I doing today? I am tagging and packing and shipping the orders I have ready. Before I do that I will get the yarn I am going to dye today ready for dyeing. I prepped the dye for it last night before I went to bed. I don’t know why but I find working in the dye barn at night kind of magically delicious.
I am also writing this to you before I head out to get started. I also have to answer emails today print tags, order dye and talk to suppliers. I need to rinse what I dyed yesterday and hang it to dry and wash out the pots. Oh and I have to reel some yarn from cones to skeins, almost forgot. It’s cause it is my least favorite part of the job.
I am going to pour myself another cup of coffee, feed the cats and Betty the chicken and head out to get things going.
I want to thank all of you for supporting Blue Moon. Thank you to those who have been sending me pictures of what you are working on and also posting them to instagram and facebook. I love it soooo very much. Oh and also for the love notes.
You are wonderful!!!!
Please know that I am working diligently to get you your yarn. If you need it sooner than later please let me know.
Please take care of yourselves!!